Joel KaskinenBruisesEvery day, I wake up, and discover new bruises all over my body.2 min read·Sep 11, 2022----
Joel KaskinenDear Anxiety,I look back on my time living in Gunnison, after Alex died, and I can’t believe I didn’t see all the ways you showed up in my life.2 min read·Jul 16, 2022----
Joel KaskinenI’ve Got No ChoiceI still think of you, because I’ve got no choice.2 min read·May 24, 2022----
Joel KaskinenHappily DepressedI listened to a podcast episode today called “Happily Depressed”. It resonated with me so deeply, this concept of being so depressed and so…2 min read·Dec 7, 2021----
Joel KaskinenThis Little LightI remember the first time we met, Joe. Brunch at Wiley’s on a Sunday afternoon. Spencer and I both agreed to going out for one drink…2 min read·Nov 16, 2021----
Joel KaskinenTo The Homophobic Pastor & My Gun-Toting BrotherI’m standing right next to you. I know you see me. You can hear me. We’ve spoken hundreds of times. But never about anything real or…3 min read·Oct 12, 2021----
Joel KaskinenStorytelliI want to tell my story. I need to tell my story. I feel the words being forced out of me like the retching of hangover after a night of…2 min read·Oct 8, 2021----
Joel KaskinenWhat Hurts The MostWhat hurts the most is that I didn’t know Alex. I never got the pleasure of knowing the good in his life. I didn’t know the hurt he carried…1 min read·Sep 5, 2021----
Joel KaskinenPast Or Present?One year later and I don’t even recognize myself. That person, that version of me feels so far away.3 min read·Jul 15, 2021----