If I Could Take Your Place

If I could take your place,

I would.

Anyway I know how.

Anyway I could.

I’d carry the burden

Of your pain and demons.

Because I know the pain of carrying the weight

Of your loss.

We can’t possibly call this even.

If I could take your place,

I would.

To know your pain.

I’d claim it as my own,

Carry it with me,

The way you do.

Only I’ll never truly know what it’s like.

If I could take your place,

I would.

So you didn’t have to know the pain you felt.

So I didn’t have to understand the loss I feel.

It’s all too heavy,

This weight we are carrying.

Together, we walk.

Hand in metaphorical hand.

Distances,

Lifetimes apart.

Strangers, connected only by shared pain.

If I could take your place,

I would.

If I could take it all away,

I would.

It’s too late now.

It was too late then.

We never stood a chance.

You’re gone now.

So am I.

Just a shadow of the people we once were.

We walk through this life,

Together,

Spirits, intertwined.

Loving each other from afar,

I imagine.

If I could take your place I would.

Because, I get a step closer to your pain

With each breath that I take.

It scares me to say so.

The only thing I know anymore

Is that I wish I could take your place.

It’s the endless thought,

Racing through my head.

Every moment.

Every day.

If only I could take your place.

Communicator. Educator. Empath. Survivor. Writer.